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With everything I have been through lately this speaks to my heart: A semicolon is used where a sentence could have stopped, but didn't. With that being said this tattoo (especially on a wrist, is used by survivors) A semicolon tattoo means she's a survivor of self harm/anxiety/depression and things of that sorts. She could have very easily ended her life but she was strong and got over all the pain to continue on with her life story.   This will be my next tattoo:     ;

Well the search for my happy ended me up in the whack shack for five days.  I was so depressed and so suicidal that when I went to my therapy session last Tuesday she pink slipped me right to the hospital.  I was really alright with that.  It was a great facility and I really got  a lot out of being there and met some very interesting people.  But I'm home now.  Today was my first full day "out" so I hooked up with me pal Brandi Gibbs. (see My Support System for a photo of me and Gibbs.) Gibbs is a psychiatric RN.  We went to LPN school together and began a life long friendship there.  She continued on to get her RN which I did not.  She awesome.  So as my "free" psych nurse" time today, she made me do things as therapy. First she dragged me to a craft store.  I got some colored pencils so I can keep coloring and some air fresheners for my car.  I also had to wear this: I mean what is this? A snow hat, A princess ha...

I saw my psychiatrist today for my depression.  She adjusted some of my medication, but the biggest thing she wants me to change is the fact I am not in counseling.  I've done the counseling thing on and off since I was 10 years old - when my Dad was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.  I told her I didn't think therapy would work for me because I obviously wouldn't be in this shape if it ever had.  But she said I need to find my "inner happiness".  I've decided to accept the challenge. I've spent a lot of time at home alone, thinking and thinking and thinking about my situation.  The more I think about it the further down this deep dark hole I've fallen.  I feel like a failure at life because of my sicknesses.  I feel guilty for my husband having to do more.  I feel like a loser for sitting here all day doing practically nothing because I don't feel good.  I shun the sun.  The most I go outside is to either drop off or pick up ...